We Have to Do This Properly

I am waiting for a message

That I will never receive

You are up in the clouds

Whilst I am left behind

I am forgotten

I am lost

I am told so many things

About how you suffer day to day

Yet no one speaks of the suffering you push on others

The lies

The hypocrisy

How we are worn over time with no maintenance

Oh, I need help

I am here

Now I will bleed you dry

Oh, I need money

Here you go

Now I will bleed you dry

Oh, I did this

That is wonderful

Now I will bleed you dry

I am so sensitive

I am sorry

Now I will bleed you dry

I am waiting for a message

That I will never receive

The dial tone bleeps

The monotonous ring feeds the air

You have reached voicemail

Please leave a message after the beep

Sweet Talking

I SEE
OH I SEE
THAT LOOK IN YOUR EYE
OH WHAT A LOOK
THE ANGER I SEE
COULD MAKE FLESH COOK
BUT WHAT I HEAR
OH DEAR
WHAT I HEAR
YOU KEEP SWEET TALKING ME
KEEP THAT SWEET TALKING
KEEP THAT SWEET TALKING COMING
THOSE SUGAR WORDS TASTE FOUL
AND I KNOW
THE PAST YOU TOOK
THE PRESENT YOU LOOK
AND THE FUTURE WON’T BE THE SAME
YOU KEEP SWEET TALKING ME
KEEP THAT SWEET TALKING
KEEP THAT SWEET TALKING COMING
THOSE SUGARY VOWELS HOWL
THE PAST YOU TOOK
THE PRESENT YOU LOOK
AND THE FUTURE WON’T BE THE SAME

Dead Inside

I have

No reason to explain the illogical path I am walking

Drawing water from a well, turning on a tap

These all bring the same results

Walking from A to B can take hours or days

Though road is littered at the sides

Travelling through a seamlessly clear path

Unaware of the waste we pass

 

Drawing water from a well

Draws more breathes

Than when I turn on a tap

One place will make me ache

Another will push me to intoxicate

Each will make me sleep

Each will

Wake me up blind

And go to sleep awake

The day passes by

My thoughts

Dwelling on my mistakes

Personal Growth

Personal growth doesn’t happen overnight, it’s a slow and immaculate process. It takes strength, determination and perseverance to become happy with yourself.

Are you happy with yourself as a person? Do you struggle with self-worth? What do you work on at the moment?

Let me know in the comments below!

Love & Peace x

The Modern World

Simple and non materialistic things are what matters the most in this life. They enrich your life in many wonderful ways. They say- ‘Love and live because you are truly blessed’ BUT when you lack financial means all of the sudden you and your family’s mental and physical wellbeing is at risk.

There are so many loving and good hearted families with no money. Love for eachother is the only thing which keeps them from giving up. Parents put on a brave face often skipping a meal in order to feed their children. They work hard, they are honest, worried and anxious about tommorow yet they manage to smile for the sake of their children.

They say-‘Live in the present moment.’ Well, that’s a great approach but when you have children you must plan ahead otherwise your children may suffer and you don’t want that to happen. I wish life was easier. It’s sad and you can only understand it when you are a parent yourself.

Why oh why the modern world is so unfair?

Mental Health Awareness

Anxiety

Depression

Social anxiety

Hypochondria

Bipolar disorder

Schizophrenia

OCD

Postanat Depression

PTSD

ANOREXIA

BULIMIA

Many

Many

More

You name it

If you have ever suffered from a mental health disorder you know what it feels like to have a constant battle with your mind.

Look after yourself, have a mental health issue under control, live your life by enjoying it and BE PROUD.

BE PROUD of who you are because you are the warrior!

The warrior who haven’t given up and who has been able to embrace this part of their life living it to the fullest.

Spread the awareness of mental health to those who still follow deeply embedded in the society stereotypes.

– Vulnerable

– Hypersensitive

– Unreliable

– Weird

These stereotypes are false because they deem people who suffer from mental health issues incapable of functioning in the modern world.

Together we can abolish these assumptions by talking about mental health openely.

Don’t be ignorant when you hear someone commenting on another person’s mental health problem. Challenge them and invite them to an open discussion. Prove them wrong.

Don’t be idle.

It will take time but we believe the mental healtj stigma will not last forever.

Worrying

If you suffer from anxiety I bet that you worry a lot. Worrying acts like a cushion protecting you from falling down into the abyss of anxiety. You are convinced that you need it because you would be lost without it. You keep telling yourself and others who have noticed your worrying pattern that it’s always good to have ‘a plan b’. Deep inside you are tired but you are ploughing through to keep yourself and your loved ones ‘safe’. Are they really safe? How can you protect them? You can protect them by being a good and sensible human being. Your plan won’t save them, your plan gives you a false impression that you would protect them. In reality, you waste your time, the time you could spend with your loved ones instead of planning.

If you ever worry and start making a plan based on anxious thoughts and the worst possible outcome, get up and occupy your mind with something physically and mentally demanding, such as listening to music, running errands or simply talking to another human being. It such a simple and obvious solution but easily forgotten.

The Avalanche of Chores

Dear Mummas,

It’s widely known that the avalanche of chores, demanding pets and a baby may cause your anxiety to thrive and flourish. We obviously don’t want that to happen!

The anxiety has been with me since childhood, I have used multiple techniques to cope with it but having an infant and two pets in the household definately makes managing anxiety more challenging.

What I’ve been doing is keeping everything under control by controlling my breathing and fleeing the chaos😎

Unsettled baby, the house being up side down, a cat running around like a headless chicken, anxiety, hopelessness and frustration rising quicky? Sounds familiar? If yes then…

STOP FOR A MOMENT

TAKE A DEEP BREATH

INHALE, EXHALE while drawing a cirle and a square with your pointing finger up in the air five times with your eyes closed (it’s a distraction method).

NOW GET UP, GET YOURSELF AND YOUR BABY DRESSED.

LEAVE THE HOUSE AND GO FOR A WALK.

THE CHORES CAN WAIT AND YOUR MENTAL HEALTH IS MORE IMPORTANT than washed dishes.