I was raised as a person who was meant to follow the path of the Roman Catholic Church. I refused to adhere to it and as a result of my decision I faced fair amount of prejudice. When I was a teenager I searched for people who would soothe my battered soul and who would understand me.
Unfortunately, I searched and I experienced faiths but I didn’t find any fairness and understanding which I was looking for.
I do believe in God because it gives me comfort but I also follow my own path of being a decent human being. I adore Buddhism and its principles and values. I’m not a Buddhist and I will never label myself as one but Buddhism has a special place in my heart. It has helped me to understand the true beauty & meaning of life. Thich Nhat Hanh is my hero.
You might be reading it and thinking – Oh well, this post suppose to be about mental pain & suicide and instead of it she is bragging about the religion.
Well, in my experience, mental pain & suicide is linked to faith ( atleast some aspects of it). It has created a stigma among people who regard themselves as true believers. Religions such as Roman Catholicism, Judaism and Islam condemn suicide threatening their followers with pain & hell after death.
Mental health is a taboo topic. It’s considered to be a shameless ailment which not taken care of may lead to suicide. Mental pain is the inseparable part of the mental health subject. Some among the readers who have experienced it may agree with me that mental pain is considerable to a serious physical wound. The mental pain paralyses your mind, it leaves you feeling low, numb, sad, in despair, and severely depressed. If I wanted to put it in simpler and more descriptive words I would say – it feels like your heart is being ripped out of your chest and torn apart under the pressure which tightens your throat, your brain is being gnawed on and devoured piece by piece. It feels unbearable and it makes you tired. On the top of that you want to give up, you think that you don’t have strenght to fight anymore, you don’t want to be a burden to others and most of all YOU FEEL OUT OF CONTROL OF YOUR OWN BODY & MIND. You can’t see the way out!
THERE IS A WAY OUT! NOT THE SUICIDE BUT TO STAY ALIVE!!! THE REASONS BEHIND YOUR MENTAL PAIN ARE VALID BUT THINK ABOUT THE CAUSES OF THESE REASONS!
-NOT BEING UNDERSTOOD
-PRESSURE AT WORK
-PRESSURE AT SCHOOL
All of the above mentioned reasons have their deeply embedded causes which have put you in the position of suffering. The SHIT you are in right now is only TEMPORARY.
I believe that you are brave enough and have strength within yourself to make this first baby step towards conquering the mental pain & suicide thoughts.
ONNCE YOU HEAL YOUR MENTAL WOUNDS AND RECOVER THERE WILL NOT BE ANYTHING THAT YOU WON’T BE ABLE TO DO OR ACHIEVE.
Don’t be ashamed of your problems, talk about them out loud. You are a unique human being who deserves to feel comfortable, and whose pain can be erased IF YOU ONLY LET OTHERS IN.
WE ARE HERE TO LISTEN !!!
DON’T SUFFER IN SILENCE
LET IT OUT
Samaritans – http://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help-you/contact-us
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